There are few things worth saying any more these days. When the whole blog thing started years ago I was writing every day. Every thought or idea I had suddenly seemed worth broadcasting to the world. Every idea seemed fresh. Life actually felt new under the same old sun. But I should have known better. "There's nothing new under the sun." Since then I've discovered that nobody cares. Heck, even I don't care most days. No one cares what you or I think. I care for very few things as well.
So you might wonder why I am taking time to write all this down while fully aware of the implications of the question, "If a tree falls in the middle of nowhere, and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?"
Honestly, I'm just hoping to be wrong. Maybe people do care.
Anyway.
I've been living life in auto-pilot mode. My mind is on leave or something. I go here. Do that. Learn this. Sing that. Pray here, pray there. There's no end in sight. But I am happy. Every day I can honestly proclaim life is good. Don't misunderstand, I have enough struggles and issues to occupy my time, but I can't shake the feeling of peace in my soul. Sometimes it's so overwhelming I find it hard to be affected by anything, to be upset or angry. I feel so distant no matter where I am or how many people I'm with. It's making me irresponsible. I could stay like this forever, but no. That's complacency.
Strange.
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I care. More importantly, God cares.
I CARE! I CARE DEEPLY! haha i can't remember what sitcome that's from. Can you show me where the auto pilot button is? I would like some peace too. You would think I would knowing working in the industry that I do but the pilots never show me.
having that peace with God, others, and ourselves is the only thing worth striving for.
i read it and i dont care.
jk! you still xanga, thats cool =)